#IGotOut

I got out of a home

A place to belong

And vice around my chest 

Squeezing the air from my lungs

When I woke up to the inconsistencies 

and realized my dreams were too big

For the tiny container I was given

Told it should be enough 

And now I float like a rudderless boat 

From port to port

Never docking

I got out of a family

Of security 

Of being followed and questioned and needing permission

When I asked too many unanswerable questions 

When I triggered Discomfort

And now I wake to more questions

And no one to ask

I got out of uncertainty

Of knowing what comes next and with whom

Of knowing who I am and who I will become 

When I felt invisible 

And realized my humanity was not welcome

In its fullness

And now I am free

Free of certainty

Free of knowing what's next

Free of knowing who I am and will become 

Freedom is expensive though

And I am still paying for mine